Christmas Shopping

Dear Christopher,

Christmas shopping without you was so hard.  You kept telling me you wanted to shop with me this year and you'd help me.  So I waited for you to come back to me.  And you never did.  And then with you gone, I wanted to completely skip Christmas.  But I knew I couldn't.  So I finally got around to finishing my shopping this week.  And it was so hard.  I decided not to shop for anyone except Elliott and Darla.  I looked at my list I made in October.  It had your mom and dad both on it, with a note to ask you what they'd like. Baby, it's so hard marking them off.  But I definitely don't think your parents would like it if I gave them presents now.  Why did you have to leave us all, though??? Why didn't we shop together for presents for them baby?? And send them in the mail with a card with a picture of us with Elliott.  I miss you so much.  This month has been awful, just like last month.  It was supposed to be our first Christmas together!! Now I have to do it without you. And that's not fair.

I love you, Chris.  And I miss you.

Carla