Christmas shopping without you was so hard. You kept telling me you wanted to shop with me this year and you'd help me. So I waited for you to come back to me. And you never did. And then with you gone, I wanted to completely skip Christmas. But I knew I couldn't. So I finally got around to finishing my shopping this week. And it was so hard. I decided not to shop for anyone except Elliott and Darla. I looked at my list I made in October. It had your mom and dad both on it, with a note to ask you what they'd like. Baby, it's so hard marking them off. But I definitely don't think your parents would like it if I gave them presents now. Why did you have to leave us all, though??? Why didn't we shop together for presents for them baby?? And send them in the mail with a card with a picture of us with Elliott. I miss you so much. This month has been awful, just like last month. It was supposed to be our first Christmas together!! Now I have to do it without you. And that's not fair.
I love you, Chris. And I miss you.