I miss you so much. I love you. I wish you were here. It's funny how one minute I'll think I'm ok, then the next minute I'm sobbing. I just don't know how to live without you babe. I still need you. And I'm so sad I can't have you.
Today was a good day. I laughed and smiled when I talked about you. I didn't cry at church. But then it was time to wrap Christmas presents. And bam, there were the tears. I was thinking about the presents you wanted to get Elliott. I got him one of them. So then the question was "How do I tag this one?" I originally planned on signing it "From Mom and Chris." So do I still do that? I think I will. I wish you were here baby. I wish you could watch him open it. I think it will be one of his favorites. He asked Santa for it. But I'm giving it to him from you. Because I know you would have wanted to give it to him. And I think I'm going to let him know that. So he can still remember how much you love him.
I miss you Christopher. So much. And I love you with everything in me.